Blossoming Stargazer
You got my attention quickly
My heart started to plant a seed
With your name on it
It slowly bloomed over time
I believe you saw the beauty
Blooming within my vine growing ribcage
You got scared with your feelings
Saw your roots reaching for mine
So you stopped your flower from blooming
Petals started to deteriorate one by one
I tried to use my love to pollinate yours
But...
You pushed me away into the shade
My petals cried out for you
Slowly realizing...
My stalled bloom couldn’t thrive
If I kept reaching for you
When you didn’t want to bloom together
Crying tears to water myself
I found a little light
My petals started to grow slowly again
Once your thorns cut me loose
I bloomed into a beautiful Stargazer
One day my soulmate will see me
And water my soul forever
Measures Of Affection
“Baby please, hold me for a few more minutes”
“I have to go”
“Please baby!”
“Sorry I gotta go”
It wasn’t often she asked her to hold her a few minutes longer.
Then one day she stopped asking. The love of her life never even noticed, never cared.
One night after a huge verbal fight, she waited until her lover was asleep, looked at her with tears falling down her cheeks. She packed all of her stuff.
She didn’t leave a note or anything. She left the key on the countertop, and closed the front door softly.
6 Months Later
Her ex girlfriends father passed away, and today was his funeral. She took the week off, and headed up to her hometown for the funeral.
She sat next to her ex quietly, and held her hand. Her ex looked at her with tired, red eyes. A smile appeared through the sadness.
The service was beautiful, and everyone stood around hugging each other, and some were crying. Her ex was holding her mother who looked limp. She walked up to them and handed them tissues.
Two Hours Later
Most people went to the house to be with each. She sat in her car for a few seconds, and then headed up to her ex girlfriends childhood home.
She found her ex sitting in her childhood bedroom with a bottle of Hennessy in her hand.
Her ex stood up, and threw her glass at the wall, then she started punching the wall.
She walked up behind her ex and wrapped her arms around her tightly. Her ex’s body went limp, and they both sat on the ground, and her ex sobbed in her arms.
“He’s gone, he’s fucking gone”
“I know it hurts, but it’ll be okay”
“Thank you for being here”
“He treated me like a daughter in law, he meant a lot to me as well”
“I know”
She started to break the embrace, but then her ex asked for a request
“Please hold me for a few more minutes”
“Yes”
Rhythmic Bristles
She looked at the world differently
Always trying to ascend love
To those who truly didn’t deserve it
But she still gave out her love
The love she gave away
Always had double the price of pain
That she consumed from them
So through her summer glazed eyes
You’ll see...
Sad black & white torn up portraits
No hope
No love
No courage
No strength
No fucking unity
Just hate dripping from the canvases
Tears of paint crying out for change
Screams echo off the hollow canvases frames
You see her...
Heart breaking in half
As her hand shakes as she strokes the paintbrush
Tears falls down her cheeks
She wipes them away
But one teardrop...
Falls into the bucket of paint
She steps back to grab another blank canvas
Without looking she dips her brush into the paint
Caresses the brush on the blank canvas
She looks in deep shock
Just looking at the line she stroked
Stepping back as she scratches her eyebrow
Mounting three more blank canvases up
She dipped her brush into the paint again
Letting the bristles dance across the canvas
Within hours she stepped back again
Wiping her creative hands off
Scratching her eyebrow again
She started smiling
Then she started crying
But the good kind of crying
Looking at the beautiful color canvas
She recognized the faces
The faces she encountered
Looking at the beautiful masterpiece
She realized that the faces all had smiles
Then each face shifted into a little movie
Each persons life she impacted
She thought they took her for granted
But at the end...
Her love did fulfill parts of them