For You, Blue
Who are you to tell me what I'm worth
You don't even know me
What's my story, where am I from?
I bet you couldn't tell
All of the pain, all of the hate
It's been clogging up the systems inside you
Until your inner pipes spectacularly burst
Shooting bullets of liquid hurt left and right
Now it's left me stumbling, bumbling
Building block walls and shutting floodgates
I'm the beast inside the castle
Fairly sure I can say I have grown insane
The loneliness your wee little stunt
Has so suddenly placed inside me
Is taking up all of the space
That once contained my happy
Like you, I can't keep it in;
Now it consumes too much,
But this endless cycle
That started who knows when
Has got to be kept inside me
While I hope for a better day
Who are you to tell me what I'm worth
You don't even know me
What's my story, where am I from?
I bet you couldn't tell
I am not your playtoy to toss around
I'm a human being with feelings
A sack of red flesh full of calcium bones
It is simple to break me
A solid body is what I have
I will fix this and make it right
Try to fill it up with love
No longer a car with running on empty
But I feel the cold radiating
From the ice shards in my soul
My arteries have been throbbing
In shades of red illuminated
By the moonlight that I sob by
'Cause that's the only time I dare to cry
All of my dignity was taken by a thief
Holding on to a dying branch
Of a tree with only one last leaf
Contrary to you and your stupid beliefs
I am a person who has worth
And yeah, I'm one for the keeps
One day you'll wake up and see
You were totally wrong about me
Let me let you in on a little secret
I am running fast and far
The air rushing coolwards in and streaming hotwards out
Until it flushes out the cloudy demons
Freedom from this will come to me
The finish line isn't far now, I see
You'll be so many kilometres behind
There won't even be any dust left for you to find
Not a speck of it anywhere to soak into your sad, dark lungs
Goodbye to the shadow of your ghost in the night
Tell me, who were you to try to tell me how much I'm worth?
You didn’t even know the real me
You still don’t get my story, you still can't fathom where I'm from
So watch out next time you think of speaking, of dreaming
'Cause I'd hold my tongue when I've got no friends around
And you've got not a single one in sight
You're the target for me now,
But I'll drop the poison-tipped arrow
Pulled taut on the strings of my heart
'Cause I am better than that
I'm better than that
The cycle ends here
A Different Kind of Ghost
I've always believed in the supernatural -
ghosts, auras, astral-projection, telepathy.
I was the maiden and you were the bachelor.
No exorcism or prayer could ever set me free;
Us girls, our souls are simple to enslave;
What we long for most is love's glow.
For you see, within us lies a cave
where you'll keep all those demons astow.
Your face forever engraved in my mind,
my "no"s sealed on history's plate,
the last place my thoughts resigned,
there was nothing left to do but wait.
At first, I was convinced that I was at fault,
but time has granted me glints of wisdom;
You are not to be blamed for your assault,
And you are more than just a victim.
I shed you like a skin unwanted.
Your hands will forever burn on my skin -
by you, I am forever haunted,
but the darkness shall never win.
Bent, Not Broken
Alright, I'll admit it;
we are all a little broken and filled with a bit of resent
But if you will permit,
I'll say that I am mostly bent.
We've all got backs
that kindly keep us standing up,
mine's just out of whack
and has everyone asking "whassup?"
Everyone's got their problems
that manage to strike our hearts with fear.
Mine's just got me wobblin',
I'll somehow manage to survive, my dears.
Before I doth depart,
a bit of odd wisdom for you to hear:
your strength is more than an elephant's heart,
and your heart is more pure than any deer's.