It hurts when the one you are standing up for is standing against you .

And still you continue to do.

And it continues to hurt .

Never expect back

What you are giving away

So ,have you ever seen something beautiful and drawn a complete blank? Staring into the sea ,thinking about nothing , and realising you were thinking about nothing ? That . For the times i am not gregarious , perhaps your thoughts sink into me deeper than they sink into your soul. For those precarious times when your mere presence in my mind was my security . When my body works like clockwork without you realising the effort every inch of me makes to repair itself when i think of things which are so wonderfully amazing , despite the apparently obnoxious chasms born by your words , subtly slipping into my world , a reminiscent tingling all over my biological fabric , feelings i cannot place reminding me of the person i was before and the human i have become .

Salted wounds , comfortably numb .

All she needed and not needed was to know that "it's over" .

Accepting it made it more real

But not accepting it didn't make it unreal .

So she hung and swung in a state of denial between accepting and not accepting .

"the best thing one can do when its raining is to let it rain"

Said longfellow

But what he forgot is :we as individuals hardly have any choice about it raining or not

We are powerless mortals ,who have meagre detrimental power and major helpless witnessing tendencies.

So yes we would let it rain

Even if it stings and burns

Cause hell we cant do anything about it

We must accept it

Run for shelter or carry an umbrella

Be an umbrella or throw the umbrella

But no dude don't try to make it stop raining ...

She could never comprehend ,how deeply she could love

And how deeply she loved.

She could never express ,how much she cared

And she could never show it either

she could never control how she felt

And neither did she try .

Thats her beauty .