Someone said beauty is in the eyes of the beholder but to me beauty is who you see. The person you look at in the mirror. Beauty is beyond you and me. We get so caught up in what beauty means to man. That we forgot God specially sculpted us with his bare hands. We are so stuck on what media has portrayed that we break people, and make people believe that their beauty is not worth having. So lets try and switch it up and say that beauty is who you are inside and out and eyes that beholds your beauty is yours.

Here is your chance to say what is on your mind because if you don't take this chance I promise this will your last time. Last time you tell me I'm stupid, or the last time you down grade my worth, all the mental abuse and all the physical hurt. This will be  the end of blaming me for your faults and kicking me every time I fall. This will be the end of threats , lies, and promises you will NEVER keep, and surely will be the last time I hold back from you what I am thinking. Me thinking of how I am as strong as can be... A women who bares the world and still has strength to keep moving. Me thinking how I am the light to lead someone from the darkness, and how I am the women who doesn't  mind being selfless, and a women God has molded from man that you can NEVER break down again

My mind races none stop like a patient in the insane  asylum hearing voices that tell me where I should go and who I should be. My heart beats slow like I am taking my last breath, with me hoping I would continue to breathe. The voices in my head like a tiny whispers tell me how my worth is depleading and how I'm dying, I'm bleeding. How I will  never amount, and how my feeling will never count. How my body is all they see, and how I'm an uneducated bitch pretending to be more than what I really am.  Those whispers in my head are of you a person who doesn't see the truth. A parent, friend, or lover who thinks less of me. And the blind society only seeing the stereotypes built from a closed minded world too ignorant to see more. Those whispers are there to reassure me that as long as they are there I'm doing everything I'm supposed to and that they are those that couldn't see past the shades put to their eyes, those not really seeing, those that are blind to the queen god made me to be and woman who is going to continue strive. Strive to be the person she can be in her life.

It's like I stand still as the waves destroy everything around me. While the sun grows dim and while my heart begins to stop beating, and while you look in my face and say you love me. While you tell me I'm beautiful and while you tell me I'm your only . While you lie creating the wave destroying my world around me and while you dim the light in gods perfect blue sky. Yet I stay yet I love and yet I give God my faith and trust , help me . Help me to breath again and help me to see what God sees in me , help me to believe it's true that you love me and I love you