Perfect
Written 2/13/2017
Edited 2/15/2017
I felt perfection under the caress of my fingers. I pressed my tongue to feel the charge of ideal and breathed deep the floating particles of a dream of possibility. Maybe it's not your dream, maybe not your perfection, but to me, oh to me. Perfect. Not pristine. Not immaculate. But perfect, the way the one picture is perfect on the one perfect wall. Like it was made on a molecular level to be there. She was the right thing in the right place at the right time. Perfect. I lie next to perfection, and in the morning I have to smile, and watch ideal walk out the door. And I have to trust, with a damaged, imperfect, heart, whose cracks and faults have left it without faith, that my dream will remember me when she wakes.
Rose Thorns
Written Circa 2004
Edited 8/31/2015
Someone once said
The fragrance lingers on the hand that gives the rose
Well baby roses have thorns
And thorns cut the hand
And those kinds of cuts always become scars
The rose I gave to you was a big one
And those thorns cut as deep as they could
And I'll be damned if I didn't learn my lesson
Flowers on Her Knuckles
Written Circa 2004
Edited 8/31/2015
I come limping back.
Broken ankle
Black eye
My heart pouring out of my nose.
I keep walking back into fists aimed at my heart.
Flashes of memories into stomach.
My ribs.
My face.
Every lie was a boot to my body cowering on the floor.
You keep doing this to me
Beating me to death
And I keep asking for it.
I keep letting you.
I keep looking for hope.
Wrapped around your fingers like brass knuckles.
White Flag
Written 8/27/2015
You'll need a paint brush
Black paint
Reach up
If the paint runs
Let it
It will not be the last to run from you
Grip the cloth tightly
Do not let it get away from you
Because it will try
Refuse
Deny the instinct to let go
To relent
You'll need a paint brush
And black resolve
Paint a skull
And crossbones
On your white flag
Refuse to surrender
Turn
And charge
Monsters
Written 8/25/2015
I want our monsters to meet.
I want them to shake scaly hands
Touch claw to claw
And play together
While we compare scars
I want our shadows to war
And our lives to struggle against one another
So that their worth to one another
Is evident
I want our secrets to decorate our wedding cake
For all the world to see
So that in the horror on their faces
We can find peace in each other's.
I want our monsters to grow old together
And bear the scars and cuts of battle
That they gave each other
I want our beasts to put us in the ground
Side by side
And tear down the world without us
Legend I
Written 8/23/2015
Edited 8/25/2015
A man stood at the crossroads
Above a tall cliff overlooking an endless ocean
As one would find at the end of the world.
He looked both left and right
While a crowd stood around his back
Urging him one way and the other.
Left! Some cried into his ear
If you go to the left
You'll become safe
Money and children
A wife and the car you've always coveted.
You'll die comfortably
In your bed at a ripe old age.
Right! Pushed others
If you go the right
You'll become famous and popular.
The masses will know your name and seek your voice
Your name in lights and your face in print.
You may day young
But your death will be mourned by a legion.
With a little care, he made up his mind
He set his bag on the dirt at his feet
With sure steps he walked forward
And in his fall into that great unknown water
He instead became a legend.
Somewhere Dancing
Written 2/22/2004
Edited 8/17/2015
I wish I were dancing
With someone I love
With someone who loves me
To something beautiful
Or nothing at all
Somewhere where the sun is setting
And the grass is up to our waists
So that we can see where we were
I wish I were dancing
In the middle of nowhere
Dressed to go somewhere
Somewhere that mattered
But just being there dancing
With someone I love
With someone who loves me
Inspiration
I will wear wings at all hours of the night.
I will laugh so loudly that the leaves fall around me.
I will walk with giant steps and swing my arms in enormous circles.
I will take my shoes off when I come into the house and I will never, never leave my dreams to dry on the drainboard.
I won't sleep, except for when I do.
I'll take walks in the woods and in the loud polluted city.
I'll sing off pitch when I'm not alone.
I will take off my masks and wear love unabashedly.
I will keep making promises.
And I will never stop dreaming.