it’s like the gears of a clock

never stopping

always moving

until it just stops

silence, still

for a moment

we see time frozen

click

back to the grind

in circles and circles

it goes, never ending

when will it stop again

make it stop

these thoughts

overwhelming

tick

tock

tick

tock

and deadly silence

again..

{herwords b.l.}

Here we are again

Alone and lost

Deep in thought

I’ll be okay

That’s what they say

The demons push

They wanna play

They scream their way out

But I’m fighting back

You will not get to me

I refuse

Truth is

They already did

{herwords b.l.}

This is my confession

I’m scared to death

Shaking so bad

I can’t eat or sleep

I’m nervous

Anxious

I don’t want you to know

I don’t want you to go

This is my confession

I’d do anything

Without a doubt

I’ll take the bullet

Does this mean anything

I wish I knew.

This is my confession

Im longing for you.

(herwords b.l.)

The only thing that feels

Takes your mind to another place

To feel the edge of the blade

Your mind is focused for a time

You think of nothing

Other than the sharpness

You see nothing except a line

The blood drips down

Nothing but arousal from the pain

You’re not numb anymore

You finally feel something

It powers all else

You can’t stop

You try to fight those demons

But they get longer and deeper

More powerful than the first

But you know it won’t be the last

(herwords b.l.)

It’s at night

when all is quiet

that the mind wanders.

The thoughts go

round and round.

All you can do,

is close your eyes

and hope your soul

will rest.

And when everything goes dark,

all you can do

is pay attention

to your mind.

As you breathe out

the moments of

every emotion,

you allow

silence to enter

your soul,

even if

your mind

is screaming.

(herwords b.l.)

It’s like screaming

when you can’t make a sound

Searching for the answer

not knowing the equation

Touching the water

yet your hands are dry

It’s like racing to the edge

And you’re going in circles

Sitting in the clouds

With nothing pulling you down

Typing every word

then a blank page prints

It’s like a perfect world

in a painted picture

Ice cubes falling in a cup

immediately turning to water

Cars going so fast

at one mile per hour

It’s like the first hit

of a morning cigarette

Listening to the lyrics

but all you hear is the bass

Looking beneath you

seeing a film of your past

It’s like breathing

deep down in the ocean

Crying hard

shedding no tears

Taking one last breath

never to wake up again.

(herwords b.l.)

These hands tremble

My voice is cracking

I’m breaking with

Every tear running down my face

Some day will come

When I won’t be here

Would that matter

Will they even care

How do I get back up

Where do I even go

The second hand

Beating faster and faster

My legs shake

My body collapses

What is the point

Where is my purpose

My heart is shattered

My soul is numb

{herwords b.l.}

With the depth of the words spoken,

The truth in my eyes was awoken.

The one promise held above par,

With a distance near or far.

The connection will always remain,

With a bond that will not go in vain. ‬

{herwords b.l.}

3 am thoughts, killing me.

The agony of waking up,

dreading that first intake of air.

The exhaust of the previous night,

lingering on her face.

The dried tears from the demons

in that nightmare.

The fake good mornings

and words typed out.

The clock ticking away,

as each minute drags.

The pain that staggers

with every thought.

What in this life is worth living for?

{herwords b.l.}

The water pours I hear nothing

The thoughts running in my mind

I think I’m going insane

I take a deep breath and let it sink in

I need to feel this, something

It caresses my body

This isn’t what I wanted

Why can’t I get away

I close my eyes

It trickles down

I come back to reality

Save me, if I can’t save myself

{herwords b.l.}