Thomas Patrick
Mr. Patrick arrived in Willmet just a little after eight p.m. on Friday, February 18th. He meandered around the village aimlessly, admiring the classic simplicity of the buildings, which were all dark by now. He recognized the quiet streets, the gentle lullaby of the rolling hills, and the grey stone church. Mrs. Barnby was just finishing her mopping at the bakery when she peeked out of the window to see the well-dressed young man as he walked slowly through the cobblestone streets.
"George, whoever could that be?" Mrs. Barnby called to her husband, who was currently in the back of the bakery preparing some bread for the morning. George came to the front of the bakery and peeked out of the window with his wife.
"Why, that's Thomas Patrick!" George nearly exclaimed.
"Thomas Patrick? No, it couldn't be. Doesn't Thomas Patrick live in York now?"
George squinted a little bit harder as the man passed by the bakery. "If he did, he's back now," George muttered, "and whenever a Patrick is involved, it's not going to be good."
dinosaur crunch
The first day of school
is a big day when you are
young. You celebrate.
We used to walk down
to the beach. Pick up our ice
cream at the window.
We ordered from a
long list in white all-caps font
on a black background.
I liked blue ice cream.
Dinosaur crunch, was it called?
Electric blue hue.
I also liked moose
tracks. Peanut butter cups and
chocolate ribbons.
The store closed down and
I can't remember the last
time I had those. I
can't remember when
I had the dinosaur crunch
and moose tracks ice creams.
class of 2020
june third, twenty twenty.
a thunderous voice pronounces my name.
i exit my car and as i walk
the breeze lightly brushes my hair and tassel.
the sun’s rays warm my face and caress my eyelashes.
this is it.
this is the moment i’ve been waiting for.
i almost start to cry because
look how far we’ve come.
Once upon a time
I was a girl.
A lanky barely-teenager with a too-short and poorly-maintained haircut.
Who wore sweatpants and sweatshirts every day to school.
Who never belonged.
Who itched for more.
Look how far we’ve come.
I am a woman.
A leggy seventeen-year old with a flat-ironed bob and careful makeup.
Who wears a tasteful white dress with a sprinkle of southern style.
Who belongs.
Who owns this moment.
I will say it again:
Look how far we’ve come.
Welcome to the next chapter.
Welcome to the new.
“i love you” but without saying “i love you”
i want you to be happy.
not this-current-moment happy,
not i-am-at-Disneyland-and-i-never-want-to-go-home happy,
not i-got-a-good-grade-on-a-test happy.
i want you to be happy
every moment of every day.
i want every day to feel like Disneyland and good grades.
but more than that,
i want you to have joy.
i want you to live a life you've always dreamed
and never experience stress
and laugh as much as possible.
i want every second to feel like
ice cream cones on a hot summer's day
and jumping off a waterfall and feeling the
cool water immerse you
i want every today to be better than
every yesterday.
i want you to be fully, undeniably, radically
happy.
isolation
isolation.
it goes against everything we know.
kisses, hugs,
handshakes, high-fives,
just standing close to someone
to feel like you are not alone.
isolation goes against everything we know.
we are confined to the repetitive walls
of our homes.
we have no where to go,
no where to be.
isolation goes against everything we know.
we try to make up for it
with screens and cameras and technology
but we long for something we can feel
that we cannot get through a screen.
isolation goes against everything we know.
purpose is lost.
why get out of bed in the morning?
why comb your hair and brush your teeth?
it's not like anyone would know the difference.
isolation goes against everything we know.
isolation.
it goes against everything we know.
fight for yourself
my darling, i know it hurts.
you feel the ache in your bones
the soreness in your muscles
when you wake up in the morning.
my darling, i know you're hurt.
you feel weighed down by the pain
that you did not ask for.
the emotional scabs that still need to turn to scars.
my darling, get up.
i know you are angry and sad and hurting
but you are not finished with the fight.
you are resilient.
my darling, you are stronger than the pain.
you need to fight for yourself
defend your heart and your needs
and show yourself the love you deserve.
out of their minds
she was poetry
they could not define.
her lips were like lavender
her eyes like waves in the sun
her hair like crunching leaves in fall
her love like coffee--
bittersweet.
she was whom they left behind
free-formed, multifaceted, angelic and kind
in their minds she could be left
they were out of their minds
let me down easy
you never fail to
let me down
in times of needing you
oh, how i need you
i reach out my fingertips
reaching for something
i can't touch
connection, solidarity, understanding, empathy?
i wish i didn't need you
but i suppose i'll stop reaching.
let go of the ache in my arms
the numbing of my fingertips
instead, i'll hold onto myself
keep myself warm
i get cold easily
in the winter storm
i'll let you be the one
to reach out her arm
struggling to hold on
to something she can't touch.
heart
but i will give you my heart
willingly
knowing you will break it
more than a little
more than once
because i know that on those days
when i am at my lowest
i will look around
and only have you
and i know it's not fair
to your or me
but you haven't been very fair
to me either.
when the dandelion finally blooms
it will not last
we always bloom before
we depart in the wind.
we are supposed to be forgiving
forgive and be forgiven
but i cannot
keep forgiving.
make a wish, darling.