the rain drips down the window of the train

the train that will take me to my new life

my life away from here

I need to get a new life

I  have to go

Disappear  from here

Go somewhere new

The rain pounds down harder

and harder

until I can't see outside

My heart drowns in it

until I can't breathe

the train slows down 

until we stop

and as I step off the train

my new life has begun

a slow sheet of rain hit the window

it turns louder and louder

my rage hits its high

the thunder clashing 

and the lightning striking

it slows back down

its only a light shower now

my rage is calming down

the sadness pours in

I can't stand it no more

it all comes down

my tears hitting the floor

the rain pounding against the window

I cry it out

 the rain pours down

it won't stop now

till I calm down

but things won't ever be the same again

I know

for I will always be different

be lonely

be sad

be unique

no one will be there

just me and the sky

the rain pours down

touching my skin

I can't take it no more

I let it go

as I close my eyes

why

can't

you 

stay

why

do

you

have

to 

leave

don't

leave

please

stay

don't

go

away

stay

stay

stay

can't

stay

alone

must

have

someone

What is love?

Love is many, many things

A hug, a kiss

A simple goodbye.

A poem, a book

A story for a lifetime.

I wrote a note

but you denied

my love

I wish to hold you

to never let you go

but after a while

I finally realized

you were never worth my time

or my attention

and that's all you wanted

but now

I will never let you

fool me again

so don't try me

if you truly want me

don't lie

or try to cheat me

Put you head down to cry

I will sing a lullaby

No one can hurt you here

I will protect you from your fear

Tell me all that has happened

You will never be abandoned

I will stay here by your side

I will be till you decide

I can't protect you forever

You have to be clever

To survive this world

You have to allow yourself to be twirled

Never say never

Always have an open mind

survive this world

and you'll be fine

I'm not who you think I am

I am different

I'm not like you

I can't control myself

I get distracted

I can't focus like you 

I like to wander from why I'm doing

I like to doodle instead of take notes

I can't focus on one thing, 

my mind wanders

I like fandoms

and books

But not religion

or things that my mind finds boring

I'm not stronger in one side of my brain,

I am the strongest when I use both

I learn better with both sides

I like math and science

I also like arts

and history

and languages

I can't always deal well with

religion

and things that seem too life like that are fiction

I'm not who you think I am

I am different

I'm not like you

I'm different

and unique

and there's nothing you can do to change that

I sit alone

by my side

alone

      -and afraid

for myself

my life

my future

the darkness comes near

sits down by me

hugs me, 

encloses me

I struggle 

and I start to give in

then he comes

the sunshine

my hope

my savior from the darkness

my happiness

he picks me up and swings me around

the darkness disappears

I smile for the first time in forever

I dance

and I am happy for once

The darkness has tried to come back many times, 

but I am not fooled by it no more

I  smile in its face and laugh

darkness can not hurt me no more

I am free

they fall through my fingers

barely holding on

letting go

i try to hold

but i can't

him

her

they're all messed up

my dreams are gone

they're slipping away

i grab and try to hold

but i can't

my mind is slowly emptying

i starting to dry up

my hands are cold

my heart is old

i can't stay alive much longer

i drying up

i can't stay alive

i just want to die

and no one can help me now

i must go

and you can't stop me now

they twist and turn with purpose

they write with reason

they're the future

geniuses of their time

making and inventing

the best of their hobbies

game making

programming

mathematics

engineering

all of it

they're the future

and no one will believe them

they can do amazing thing

and no one believes them

believe them, and great things will happen