regret and other pains

sometimes there is just pain

not the physical, no

that would have been too easy

that pain that occupies your heart

and weights down on your soul

is the worst kind

I'm so tired of that feeling inside me

as if I may fall apart at any minute

little pieces of me

falling to ground every day

sometimes, I notice

and at others, I don't

they fall off so quietly

lower than a whisper

until one day... to just go out with a bang

or maybe I won't notice that too?

maybe I am so oblivious to the world around me

that I will just stay in the dark of my own ignorance?

what makes my pieces not work the right way?

can someone tell me what the "right way" looks like?

because trust me when I say,

I have never seen it before in my life

I need perspective

or else I am going to lose it