Cold loneliness
The emotions I feel make me want to scream
And wake up from this nightmare.
Every day, I live this horrendous dream,
I feel like there’s no one there.
How can I describe what I'm going through?
Where are the words that I need?
The emotions, thoughts, and feelings too,
I'm choked by this gigantic weed!
I feel the unshed tears in my eyes,
And try to blink them back.
Trying to loosen these knots and ties,
With the skills that I know I lack.
Where is the joy and peace and love,
That I know I used to feel?
When will this endless suffering cease?
Is it even real?
What am I trying to say in this?Where am I going with it?
How do I say that the friends I miss
Are the ones keeping this fire lit?
I can’t go on, I have to stop,
The words are going wild.
Where’s the beginning, where’s the top?
Got to slow down, I'm all riled.
This is how I’m feeling tonight.
While the others have a laugh,
I’ll sit here with my heart clenched tight,
And try to let go of this wrath.
Where are the words to describe how I feel?