This Is For You

I get to speak to all of mankind. And even though we are well sunk into the biggest crisis of our era, I don't feel like any of my words will fix nor impact anything on mankind as a whole. The human race has lived and endured through the pest, the war to end all wars and the nuclear holocaust, they will be fine without me whispering any pretentious wisdom of my own make.

No, I don't care about them, though I do. I care about you. Today I get to share what I want to say with the entire world and you, amongst seven billion people it is you I want to talk to, and so the rest of them will hear it all, as far as it allows my words to reach you.

I know you do not need and you do not want to hear from me right now, as you heal and you grow within yourself, but there are some things I gotta say. Some things that cannot be left unsaid, though we both know them and we have both said them.

You are to this day the best decision I have ever made, the greatest strides of madness and life painted over the messy canvas our time on this earth has been. Before you I roamed the earth, I looked at the ground and up at the sky singing, seeking to find meaning somewhere. Seeking to find wherever I belonged to and whatever this unholy world is supposed to spin around. I read poetry and felt nostalgia after days I had never lived, over people I had never met and moments I had never experienced.

Then you came, or better said, I raced your way. I ran towards you. And from the moment your voice found its way through the universe and into my head I fell for you. The first time I heard you laugh, whatever the space between the atoms is made of lit up and raged, and I knew I had found it all. My place, my person, the cavity within me that seeked to be filled with life. You were life.

And so I fell in love with life and the world, as long as it was a world seen from behind you, a world sensed while holding your hand, this world was a safe place I could tame and fight and win over.

Our time on this confusing land is nothing but our dreams and our memories. What we make out of our time is reflected on those eyes we meet and touch, on those souls we connect with and tingle with through drunken nights and early mornings, running to the airport, running to each other, running to our bed, running to a concert, running and not ever stopping.

Today you and I are you, and I. I just wanted to let you know I am fine, I hope you are fine, and I regret nothing.

I will forever choose you.