DEAD DESIRES OF A WEARY LOVER
His love for her never could suffice
her desires were mountains he hardly could climb
his pleasures and hers were the east and the west
her urge for freedom he barely could trust
the goals that they set were mists at dawn
the only peace found was found in the comfort of their union
along come others,younger and stronger and prettier and smarter
they serve as links to a dying reality.
their love ,a timer,only seconds till destruction
Mark these words as I paint the scenes
their love was a wonder yet what happend
we all wonder....
Kainos
grafted in with the strongest of loves
sanctified with the purest of blood
justified by a life offered
glorified as a kind of first fruits
birthed anew by the ancient Spirit
a life indestructible,a life potent
a temple holy forever undefiled
my life hid in the bosom of my father
His power an armor that can never wither
the ultimate guide who knows no flaws
enriched in the divine,engulfed in grace
Gods will for me,His nature manifests.....
mind wars
The war againgst my soul was won at rebirth
Mists of canal thoughts wage war continually
on the mind striving to be whole,
dark grey chokers wrestling the truths of the Kainos,
of living a life of purity and dignity and sanity and clarity,
forcing down fake realities,throwing tragidies.
Tormoil faced on the outside, gave me insight to my inside,
Life as I knew it, worsened yet I gained.
The Spirit himself, patiently, spoke mystries to me.
Feeding on the word,I watched as spirit grew.
Sensoring what i do, see and listen to,
The knowledge of the truth began its manifest in me!
Transforming daily by the renewal of my mind....
rest fair lady
Rest my fair lady for dawn approaches
its warmth,sinking into the coldest of places
creating in it a feeling full of peace,
a peace that sets the heart ablaze
and purifies the soul of anger and hurt
and fear and pain,
it bargains with such feelings
never loosing a deal.
rest my fair lady for dawn approaches
it brings with it rays of joy
of gladness and grace and love and peace
My eyes lay blury yet i have no query
with neither man no beast
my fair pretty lady have no fear again
for though i grow weak,
the loins of our alignement never can be destroyed.
i am the keeper of our faith
the protector of our love
draw me close oh fair lady
for as the dawn approaches so my end reaches
fear not oh fear lady,
have non of it i pray
i love you..
i love you,
not because of your laugh
not because of your smile
its not because for you i'd go an extra mile
its not how fast my heart beats when i think of you,
or how quick i become blue when im jealous of Sue,
or when the cold creeps in when your not seen near,
or the fights my heart can hardly bear.
its not the marks that are left when i sacrifice life
its not the people who cause us different kinds strife.
its not the silence we keep when anger lingers,
or the firm grip of your strong fingers
its the conversations i wish we had
or the excitement i never can bring
its the verses we never may share
as they seem spent on others
its the cravings never concured,
its the envy of another
its the growth we struggle to share,
its your laughters that hurt to hear
and it hurts that it hurts
its the friendships i might never understand,
the mental pain that aches the heart
like a continous heart break,
lasting on and on and on...
till it breaks me,then us
and without us..im..
im not sure whats left
but it scares me,scares me to bits .....
that i love you.............
FAIR LADY
Rest my fair lady for dawn approaches
its warmth,sinking into the coldest of places
creating in it a feeling full of peace,
a peace that sets the heart ablaze
and purifies the soul of anger and hurt
and fear and pain,
it bargains with such feelings
never loosing a deal.
Rest my fair lady for dawn approaches
it brings with it rays of joy
of gladness and grace and love and peace
My eyes lay blury yet i have no query
with neither man no beast
my fair, pretty lady have no fear again
for though i grow weak,
the loins of our alignement never can be destroyed.
i am the keeper of our faith
the protector of our love
draw me close oh fair lady
for as the dawn approaches so my end reaches
fear not oh fear lady,
have non of it i pray
I FIND MYSELF
I find myself hating a friend,
I find myself loving a foe.
I find myself lost in thought.
then I find myself drenched in tears.
I find myself on a lonely road
lost in the turns of mans killing code
I find my heart faint of heart
I find my mind going out of its mind
I find what i find is not worth finding at all.
The aching of my head,
the weights that I feel.
The silent existance of a trembling heart,
the choking pretence of a jealous soul.
I find myself living without living
I find myself floating yet not free,
flowing yet trapped,breathing yet gasping,
moving yet stagnant.
Worst of all,i find myself loving yet hating.....
TORMENT
The daily torment of a troubled mind,
haunted and taunted by events unsaid.
The darkest of pasts frequently relived,
the scars like bars preventing her freedom.
A fear of a ghost who lives and breaths,
who hoovers in the shadows of the faces of man.
Your friend or your lover,
maybe the stranger on the street,
waiting in anticipation for a life fresh to ruin
the screams in the bushes are muffled with palm
and all that is left is a broken young dame.
They have no shame and will repeat it again
for they are the tormenters
who build fortresses in our mind