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Cold cold bed II-
(Continued...)
In a sudden she woke up
And start to scream-
I tried to calm her to keep quiet
But she bit my finger and tries to fleet.
I grabbed on to her hand tight
And forcefully pulled her right back on the bed
I held her down tightly
And locked her between my legs.
I kept telling her to shut up
As her next between my hands
For a moment she starts to move slowly
As if she was out of breath.
I held her neck so tight
Until she couldn’t fight back
Her eyes did not bloodshot red
There I let go of my hands.
Then, I payed next to her
And happiness strikes my head
I am laying next to the love of my life
In a cold cold bed-
Cold cold bed-
Last night was our first date
Worries starts to control my mind
What am I going to say to her?
I’m freaking out- this is not a good sign.
What if she doesn’t like me?
What if she don’t care?
Shit, do I look okay?
Damn I forgot my weave hair..
I was set and ready to go
Weird glasses and a hat
Fake watch, fake mustache, fake hair check
Remember, she don’t have to know about that.
I walked into the restaurant
Two tables in front of me
There she sat stiffly
As I watched her closely.
Her soft broad shoulders
With an uplift of her chest
Her beautiful bold red lips
Matches her long red dress.
I observed her movements
She glanced at me for the very first time
Oh how my body reacts strangely
Them eyes really blew my mind.
The night was late
As I counted the hours that she stayed
I wouldn’t want to miss my chance
Before this night becomes day.
She stood up
And I knew she’s about to leave
She gazed back one more time
‘Yes she’s mine’ I thought selfishly!
I followed her
Slowly right behind her car
I did my best to stay hidden
Didn’t want her to be alarmed.
I’ve waited in the car
Waiting for her apartment to go dark
The second it went off
That’s where it all starts.
I moved quickly into her room
Knowing that she was sleeping
But I couldn’t stop myself
She was too damn pretty.
I stared at her face
And kissed her forehead
Her jasmine scent fiercely strong
So I laid next to her in bed.
I started touching her hand
All the way down to her back
I held her gracefully
And start kissing on her neck.
(To be continued...)
The sun after the rain-
I am beautiful, I think
With an oversized t-shirt
Baggy pants for full coverage
Low fat shake with a teaspoon of hurt.
I smile,
The best ones are upside down
The mind is the true enemy
Even without makeup, I’m a clown.
Excessive amount of fatness
Curves that are too thick for the eyes
Cellulites and thunder thighs
Underarm wings that can possible make me fly.
Stretch marks like tattoos
All over my naked body
Neck with extra roles
Mirror on the wall, be honest, I do look funny.
Come on self-esteem
Boost something new and hopeful
It’s a new year already
Tired of the old and the doubtful-
Wake up, breathe in and breath out
It is a brand new day
Start with abundance of love and joy
Let the negative fade away.
I am beautiful, I know
Yes confident where have you been?
Look at these luscious imperfections
And that smile, true beauty from within.
Embracing thy body
Let the judgmental eyes see
No coverage of shame no more
Taking the first step of the new me.
The sun after the rain-
I am beautiful, I think
With an oversized t-shirt
Baggy pants for full coverage
Low fat shake with a teaspoon of hurt.
I smile,
The best ones are upside down
The mind is the true enemy
Even without makeup, I’m a clown.
Excessive amount of fatness
Curves that are too thick for the eyes
Cellulites and thunder thighs
Underarm wings that can possible make me fly.
Stretch marks like tattoos
All over my naked body
Neck with extra roles
Mirror on the wall, be honest, I do look funny.
Come on self-esteem
Boost something new and hopeful
It’s a new year already
Tired of the old and the doubtful-
Wake up, breathe in and breath out
It is a brand new day
Start with abundance of love and joy
Let the negative fade away.
I am beautiful, I know
Yes confident where have you been?
Look at these luscious imperfections
And that smile, true beauty from within.
Embracing thy body
Let the judgmental eyes see
No coverage of shame no more
Taking the first step of the new me.
Tell me...
Tell me, what do you see?
Birds embracing the flow of the wind
crystal clear blue sky
trees dancing in place
Rays of sunshine shining directly in my eyes.
Tell me, what do you smell?
The smoke of the kitchen skillet
Spices that waters any mouth
Smells of the northern vibe
Intertwine with a drop of the south.
Tell me, what do you taste?
Bitterness at the tip of my tongue,
Like last night's nightmare, a foul taste
Taste of my love, fading
Nothing sweet, ever, nothing for me to take.
Tell me, what do you hear?
A black woman woman, her voice echoing louder and louder
Restless deck of cards, one by one
Wheels moving further away
Crashing sounds of humanity evolving with less respect.
Tell me, what do you feel?
Emptiness, from inside and out
Decisions are never settled, my head
Cold breeze coming through a shield of clear glass window
sweat between my toes
sweaty palms, it is still cold
I do not want to be disturb-
A table been wiped down who-knows-what how many times
I feel lonely, unstable, I am helpless
Emptiness from inside and out...
What about you? Tell me...
What is it-
I didn’t mean it
I know what I said,
Let’s just calm down
Quiet, I need to clear my head.
Just SHUT UP!
You’re talking way too much,
I can’t barely think
Can you just -
Listen, let me say this
I know exactly what you mean
But time’s changed
Which means we-
Cannot, we cannot
I said it before
You just refuse to listen
Instead you just want more.
Just leave it alone
Someone will come,
Come on let’s go
What’s done is done-