Explain the secret to balance

If too high

Your nothing more than arrogant

Dipped too low

Your a sensitive soul with ailments

Depression, anxiety, or bipolar they ask

There is no such thing as "dipping too low " on life's balancing act

Explain the balancing act of troubleshooting life's curve balls

Grieving or crying too long

Has just never been heard of

Like loving too hard

Seems to be a lost art form

When does determination become a line blurred with self centeredism?

Explain a proper dose of peace

For too much

Is idling in a world with no peace

Balancing act they call it

Or is it in fact an act

We just can't call life out on it

Confliction internally

Confidence externally

Never knowing what is real

Or grasping to fate

One minute feeling great

To feeling bad

Deceitful, lustful, agonizing

Tell me

What am I suppose to do?

Wait?

Affection, attention

Am I settling?

All these questions

Never any answers

To who do I give my fate?

Love more, laugh more

Smile more, learn more

Striving to be better

To be one

To be whole

Welcomed challenges and assaults

Stood no match

To dismantling a solid platform

Sudden and fast

No chance to secure

No second to spare

All it took was one

To forget all you stood for

Fires burning

Choas brewing

In solidarity standing

Invisible war I prepared for

No longer thinking or feeling

Focusing on before

Can’t adjust to what’s coming,

What’s happening

Platform crumbling

In solidarity standing

Unaware of the broken floor

Too late to mend

Ruble on the floor

In solidarity standing

What happened to my floor?

Pleading and crying

To my knees I’m praying

Why can’t it be like before?

Devastation growing

Sadness building

My heart is breaking

For my life before

Inside screaming

“How dare you feel the way you are feeling!”

It is your doing that led to a crumbling floor

In solidarity

On my knees I keep praying

Broken and confused

Humiliated and devastated

Why did I think I needed more?

Inadequately feeling

I’m told, “sometimes it takes what we think we want to show us that we don’t need more ”

On my knees I’m praying

Give me the strength

To rebuild a solid platform

But better than before.