I remember the confession,

And the dress I wore that day,

I will not forget the silence,

That sound never goes away,

I sat clothed in the bathtub,

Elbows to my knees,

As I watched the running water,

And told myself to breathe,

In that terrifying hour,

As I heard you go to bed,

I tried to comprehend,

All the words that you had said,

How easy you watched my tears fall,

And never even flinched,

It was constant fear I lived in,

Each time your fists were clinched,

My scars remind me every day,

Of something you made clear,

Hell must be empty,

Because the devils are all here.

See me.

Unnoticed, alone,

drowning in a sea of faces,

adrift on my own.

A crowded bus

where eyes never meet,

but if your gaze meets mine

what would you see?

You know not the trials I’ve endured,

but would you see a life

comparable to yours?

Would you say anything?

We part ways and so we never meet,

like the wind and autumn leaves.

Your eyes shone with aknowledgement,

but

did you really see me?

Her, lain slain.

Her, with silver pouring from her veins.

Diced.

Sliced.

Constrained.

Her, somehow picturesque restless,

though, this infinite sleep she does not feign.

Lungs, breathless.

Water, surrounding.

Porcelain, stained.

Eyes, vacant yet arcane.

Sound, unresounding.

Heart, not responding.

Skin, wet just like the rain.

I make the same mistakes

Over, and over, and over

I fall for the same tricks

Again and again

My once whole heart

Is now a shattered piece of soul

I think to myself

"This time it's real"

Every time it ends the same

Crying myself to sleep

And you having no idea

The pain you have caused

You always pick something over me

Now it's my turn

I choose to move on with my life

I choose to find my own happiness

I choose to no longer focus on you

I finally made a choice

My legs

Your legs

Entwined

Very long

Where we wrap

Around each other

And squeeze