Drawer
I used to think that
our drawer would never close
all the way
but nothing feels like it
used to.
Our memories, our moments
still bring a smile to my heart
but I can tell they have changed for you
you have closed the drawer
and it feels like I need to as well
because every time I see you
it brings things back to the surface
and those feelings and wounds are fresh
and it takes time to move past them….again
and closing the drawer becomes a little easier
But will I every be able to shut it all the way….
In my feelings…..
I have to pretend you’re dead
Because otherwise I may
Never stop the tears from falling
It feels surreal
I feel like you left
Before you ever got to the amazing part of our life
And the shitty part
Is that you talk to me like
We were just casual acquaintances
Mere friends that hung out on occasion
And it sucks
Because I planned my whole world around you
And now I’m left with nothing except
Our places, our memories, and my constant battle to forget them all
Last night...
last night was one of those
nights
that made me love you a little
bit more today
than i did the day before
dancing in the kitchen
drinking red wine
laughing
talking
those are the moments
that mean the most to me
those are the nights
i hold so dear
where i can just be me
and you are just you
and it just feels right
Moments….
Thank you for the moments
The crazy moments where I laughed
So hard, drank too much, and couldn’t
Remember all the fun that was had
Thank you for the moments
The serene moments of sitting,
Drinking wine, and talking about our
Past lives
Thank you for the moments
The fun moments where we’re altogether
And the kids’ smiles and laughter
Brings such happiness to my heart
Thank you for the moments
All of the moments that I get
To be with you and share with you
From the tiniest to the biggest
I cherish them all.
Time
It doesn’t matter what we’re doing
A wild night out
Or football on the couch
The time I get to be around you
Makes me happy
It’s just easy without having to try
Feel like I’ve known you forever
You know what makes me tick
What makes me laugh
What I need and what I’m looking for
I hope that I do the same for you
This partnership….it’s everything
I never feel alone with you in my life
Years….
It’s taken years
To finally feel that I
Have met that person
That makes me feel safe
Makes me feel happy
Makes me feel like I can
Breathe
You are that person
You give so much and yet probably
Have no idea
I sit on your boat…look around
And think about how
you make me feel so happy
I even shed a tear but it’s because you make me so
Happy
Thank you….
Years….
It’s taken years
To finally feel that I
Have met that person
That makes me feel safe
Makes me feel happy
Makes me feel like I can
Breathe
You are that person
You give so much and yet probably
Have no idea
I sit on your boat…look around
And think about how
you make me feel so happy
I even shed a tear but it’s because you make me so
Happy
Thank you….
This Time....
I thought it was what I wanted
I thought it was the chance
That i’d never have again
For that split second
It felt like it did years ago
But then I realized
We’re different
We’ve grown
We’ve changed
And that moment just doesn’t feel
The same
And for once I feel like
I have
Closure
It took 15 years
But I can finally close this chapter
Of the
Book.