an admission

If Iʼm as much of a pacifist as I like to think

Then why do I have to fight to stay peaceful?

If Iʼm as much of a logical person as I like to think

Then why is it so hard to listen to reason?

Iʼd like to think itʼs because of you

That you somehow broke me

Cause I must have achieved my ideal “self" a long time ago

But I know that doesnʼt make sense.

If I blame you, you win.

If these flaws are your fault, my "perfection” was demolished by you

Singlehandedly.

Iʼm not giving you that much credit.

Iʼm not perfect. I never have been.

I know Iʼm not the person Iʼd like to be.

I doubt anyone really is, if we're honest.

No matter how much Iʼd like to think Iʼm completely pacifist

Iʼm influenced only by logic

Thatʼs never true.

And it never will be.

So hereʼs where you lose.

You will not break me.