Proof I have no life

So, I'm back.  Yesterday, I actually enjoyed this, so I decided to do it again.  It's a bit therapeutic, somehow.  I'm not worried about sounding crazy, or if it makes sense, because I'm just writing my random thoughts.  At the same time, I'm publishing it in a place where others will(theoretically) read it.  I'm putting myself out there- the real me, with no editing.  That's something hard for me to do, so I think this is good for me.

Ugh, thinking of things to write is hard.  I'm just writing whatever pops into my head, but once I get stuck on a topic I tend to dwell on it for a long time.  Is that normal, or is that like dipping my toe into Bartleby-ism?  We've been talking about Bartleby a lot in AP Lit.  Apparently, Bartleby is all about being stuck in the past, unable to move forward with your life.  I'm not sure I completely understand it.  It would probably help if I actually read the short story.  I was planning to finally read it this weekend(it was supposed to be read for class a week ago) but now that the weekend has come I'm too lazy to do it.  This kind of thing happens to me a lot.  I make plans to do something, but when the decided time comes I'm to lazy to actually do it.  Or I would rather do something else.  It's pretty pathetic.  At this rate, I'll end up being a homeless crazy person living under a bridge.  Though that might have its perks.  I could become the under-the-bridge troll, jumping out whenever people come by and demanding they give me money.  Or a sandwich.  Or whatever it is I feel like having at the moment.  But then eventually the cops would show up, and I'd have to abandon my bridge.  Bridge trolls have it tough.  It's a wonder that old troll from Dora(what was his name again?) managed to stay there so long.   Now I'm talking about Dora.  Wonderful.  This is what happens when your main out-of-school socializing is with preschoolers.  You have no idea what happened on the last episode of Criminal Minds, but you can describe the plot of various Disney Jr. shows in detail.

I wonder if other people think like this.  Do their thoughts read out as though they're speaking to some invisible listener?  Or am I crazy?  Do I have a unique way of thinking that deviates from the norm?  I guess I'll probably never know, unless I can read minds.  That would be a cool power.  But then I'd probably find out a lot of things I don't want to know.  I don't really care about what other people are thinking about, just how their thoughts work.  How they organize them.  Though if I could read minds, I would probably end up reading them for the content at some point.  It would be tempting, and I know I have sucky self-control.  If I didn't, I don't think I'd be polluting the writing world with this right now.  I'd be keeping my thoughts to myself and letting anyone who takes the time to read this spend it on something at least marginally more productive.

I think I'm done for the day.  I'm getting bored again.  But, I might write another of these tomorrow, since a lot of stuff is going to happen, and I tend to have a lot of weird thoughts after things happen.

One last note.  I would like to apologize for posting my last SOC three times in a row.  My computer gremlin(I'm pretty sure these exist, and one's possessing my laptop) was being a jerk at the time.