I followed you
as I opened my eyes and felt
your embrace, your warmth, your kiss.
As your rays,
getting brighter and brighter
touches my body,
comforts the every part of my soul
from the lonely night I just went through.
I was crying,
screaming,
trying to fix my life,
searching
for something that I have been longing–
love.
And as you came,
everything felt
better.
For a second,
a moment,
time stopped.
I finally found what I need–You.
I tried to grasp
the rays of your light,
desperate
to hide the darkness
I am in,
desperate
for you.

I followed you,
throughout the day
for you make me feel complete.
The sky was bruised
and the clouds tried to hide you
yet you remained calm
and stayed.
But frustration suddenly arises,
little by little,
my shadow gets smaller
and smaller.
I became blinded
by your light,
too blinded
that I was not able to see,
suddenly you were gone.
I am alone
again.

I followed you.
I loved you,
needed you,
wanted you–
I thought.
But love was suddenly turned to pain,
desperation, to anxiety.
You provided me
with so much light
that I was not able to see.
I closed my eyes,
opened it–
you were no longer there.
Darkness
once again embraces me.
I am back to my old self–
afraid, lonely
with nothing to hold on to.
You came in a blink of an eye,
you were gone just the same,
leaving me in this dark place,
alone,
and cold
again.