Falling for a Friend

Falling in love with your best friend isn't romantic. Falling in love with your best friend isn't "goals" or anything like that. Falling in love with your best friend means endless tears shed at night while you realize you'll never be the one they want. Every night you will go to bed, wishing your best friend all the happiness in the world knowing you'll never be the cause of it. They will always come to you about how their falling for the newest significant other or how perfect a date or conversation or phone call went. They will always ask you for advice about what to do or say for a current crush or how to keep them happy at the end of a fight.

Falling in love with your best friend means endless backup on your part without ever putting your personal feelings between the two of you. You will always be the one they go to for advice. You will always hold them tight as they cry to you when they get their hearts broken repeatedly. You will hold their hand when they are feeling down, lift them up when they have been beaten to a pulp, and always, ALWAYS remind them that they are more. You will always be by their side but not as a lover; you're simply the "best friend." You're the one all of their significant others will be jealous of or worried about, but they will always say, "don't worry about them. There's nothing between us, they're just a friend. We don't have a romantic relationship." And just like that, your heart will shatter all over.

Falling in love with your best friend means constant heartache. It means only wanting the absolute best for your best friend. It means you will do everything in your power to cheer them up through every heartbreak, give the best advice on how to keep the relationship thriving, and being available for late night talks about how perfect their life is going. Falling in love with your best friend isn't perfect; it's bitter; it's cold; it's heartbreaking.