Shattered

I wasn't always broken. In fact, I was the most sewn together person I knew. But then, I let you into my life. Your surface was sewn perfectly together and that's what caught my eye. You were charming and sweet. Funny and empathetic. Where I craved to be noticed you fulfilled in every way I wanted. I didn't think my life could be more perfect. I could talk to you and we laughed and shared our stories. I fell for you and you fell for me. At least, that's what you said, and I believed you! How stupid of me. When you let me in I was oblivious to the broken pieces around me. I thought I could fix you. Put all your pieces back together and I would be the glue that kept you from falling apart. Boy was I wrong. I stayed with you through everything. Every time you had a mental breakdown I dropped everything. From the very beginning. I was not broken, but you were. You were shattered beyond repair. I should've seen that, should've gotten out the first time you said you hated me. Yet, I stayed. I stayed because I had hope. I had the little memories from the beginning when you hid everything from me and acted sane. Then, down the line I saw the real you. Every time you called me pathetic and said I was worthless I felt my insides break a little more. Every time you said you and that girl were just friends my heart cracked, knowing it was a lie. I wasn't broken when I met you but every time you yelled in my face about how ugly I was or laid a hand on me I could feel the hope fading away. I wanted out but I didn't know how to break my promises, how to keep you alive if I did that. I kept hold of the little hope I had left with white knuckles and trudged on. We grew apart so fast I wasn't expecting you to up and leave. You said you would be there and you weren't. I was of no use to you anymore, I knew you too well. You couldn't handle it and you shattered me. Shattered me into a million pieces I could never even hope to repair. We are all broken. Not at first, when we take our first breaths and we are so full of hope and honesty. This world breaks us. We are lied to, cheated on and fucked over multiple times shattering our insides and leaving a hopeless empty shell. We realize we are on our own and can't rely on a single soul. We realize no one actually cares and we become calloused, broken.