insomnia: part I

i can't turn it off—

my mind,

this lamp,

my cellphone,

this city.

i can't put it out—

this cigarette,

my frustration,

this compulsion,

my desire.

ache keeps on aching,

discomfort becomes comfortable,

constant

i need to shut down

turn off

disengage

unplug

sever

i need to sleep