Cold waters.

Have you ever wanted to feel somthing, feel something just to make you feel anything. It's like when your so sad, your willing to put your body through anything just to feel somthing other than internal misery. Like dive into the water when is fourty three degrees out. The burning sensation the water would bring would feel better than the internal hatred that consumes you. In a way maybe you feel like it could wash you clean, inside and out. Give you a fresh start. Maybe that's why some people with depression take so many baths or showers the water makes us feel like it could wash away all the bad things, the thoughts, the memories, the expieriances, the past that knows how to eat us alive. We hope that if we stay in there long enough, it could cleanse us. Unfortunately some of us stay in so long, we drown.