i. I think she lost herself

in the Pacific Ocean,

while on the path between

finding him

and finding happiness.

ii. I think she liked

the way his fingers traced

her hips

and her lips,

making her feel like

a work of art,

beautiful.

iii. I think she threw up

her heart after sobbing for hours,

maybe days,

maybe weeks,

and I wasn't sure whether to

shove it back down her throat,

or hide it away.

(I shoved it back down her throat)

iv. I think she found herself

in the Pacific Ocean,

while on the path between

finding peace

and finding acceptance.