Inherent Insecurities

There was a time I lost all control 

Self doubt pounded,

Crushed my fortress to dust

The sour aftertaste lingered, 

A harsh, miserable reminder

Of days that left me in a daze

A sleep so deep, I was certain I would never wake

When I did, I found myself in a world so strange

One I struggled to comprehend

Grateful to have risen from the darkness,

But blinded by light that consumed flames

I knew not how I ended up here

Beating hearts, rude familiarity all around

Stark differences, no common tongue

Drowned in a sea of the unknown

I inhaled the salinity of crashing waves

Sweetness personified, pumped through my veins

For the first time, in a long time

I could breathe

I remembered that I had forgotten how to

My lungs ached in elation

For the new vitality it drew in,

No matter how wrong it may have seemed

My body turned salt to sugar

A matter of survival, inherent instincts 

Sprung into play,

Weakness crafted seamlessly to strength

Strength so powerful,

I reveled in my new found plunder

I soared across the skies, 

Jumped atop the highest hills

Rolled in green pastures

Comfort slowly drove away glamorous wonder

The unknown became known to my consciousness

My grip loosened, I wasn't aware

Of what was becoming of me

Was I slipping back into that dreadful slumber?

Am I , right this moment?

I pray not, 

Thank heavens, the question has been raised

A chance to thwart unpleasant repetitions, granted.