And it’s dark in a cold December

I woke up this morning with him pressed to my back, and the whole time I kept wishing that it was you who was curled up next to me. I thought I would be over all of this. I thought I left these feelings along with my heart in the past when I walked out that door. It's been three damn years but I still love you. I was unfortunate enough to find the love that transcends mind, body, and soul at a very early age. Now I have to live with the regret of letting you go when all I really wanted was for you to stay.