After a Fight

It was something small.

It felt like you weren't listening,

That you didn't understand.

So I got angry,

I call you stupid, 

Say you don't understand,

Because I don't have the words to explain.

You get angry,

And stop listening,

Just shouting about

How I have to respect you,

How you are in charge,

So what I want, say, think

Doesn't matter.

So I storm away.

But as soon

As the door closes between us,

I burst into tears.

Because I'm so stupid, 

Everything is my fault

Because I mess everything up.

And I know I should apologize

So I go back out.

But I'm afraid

You're still mad,

So I hang in doorways,

Watching for some small sign

That you are not mad,

That it's okay,

And you still love me.

But you walk right by me

Without looking,

When I call your name

You ignore me.

So I go back into my room and cry,

Because I know

That I've ruined everything

And you don't care.