Games with Family

I sit here and watch the dice betray me for these cold blooded bastard-children that surround me with superior strategy and otherworldly dice rolls with shallow anger that makes me feel foolish but instead rejecting it I embrace it and go for mutually assured destruction giving all my cards to the child who never robbed me, never betrayed because those other two are vile conquerors who plunder my chance of victory with no sense of gamesmanship or respect for elders or just sense a good time because victory at all cost has become the modus operandi for the gamer children, born with a controller in hand and mic in mouth spewing vitriol and exacting words meant to cut at the opponents psyche which does because they're smart and experienced at this warfare but what they ignore is I'm unbalanced and willing to seek vengeance against my brethren to right their wrongs, to my perspective, and the joy I glean from their demise is sweet but brief as we move on to the real world where games are silly and I look foolish, where the heart slows to normal and the bitter loss verse children looks ridiculous in retrospect but the fact of the matter is, fuck those bastards and their superior strategy at the cost of my enjoyment which I care deeply about.