Within Myself and You.

Is this some kind of delusion within me? a distraction maybe? Oh no not at all.

It's me, something is wrong within me. 

Why do I feel this then? 

Oh could it be that I am in love with someone that is out of my reach? 

something is bothering me for a while now.

Why do I feel you're so far away? 

I can't even reach you. 

Why in all 7 billion people has to be you? because there is something in you that I see that I can't see with other people.

While I drown myself within the core of all disputed points of myself, 

but you showed up. 

All the strains that binds me that no one has noticed, 

but you showed up. 

All the misguided things that I do, 

but you showed up. 

Why? 

Why is this happening to me? 

Why is it that I can only reach you by imagining you in my own mind?

I hate to think of you 

because I end up recreating you in my own mind just to fill up my needs. 

It scares me so much. 

I can't show it to you what is within me.

So I stay silent until you see me.

Until then I can only love you from afar.