My life is shaped by the choices I make. I am the one who choose how to live my life or create my life's path. My future will not be determined by chance but rather by the choices I make today. Life is a series of choices. The choices I make now affects the options available for the next set of choices. Learning what to choose and how to choose, may be the most important education I will receive. There is no such thing as the perfect human, we commit errors we are imperfect whether we like it or not but it is not something to tension about. It is our imperfections that makes us humans. These imperfections teaches us about ourselves and the mistakes we make in life will teach us how to be more better. If i let my mistake teach me and not rule them are one step closer to perfect. There are moments in life where I found myself at crossroads. The choices I make in those moments can define the rest of my days. My paths seems like a series of hills and valleys, there is never any balance. I should examine those choices and identify alternatives or new choices that will bring me to my true path - the one I created originally created. Once again my life is shaped by the choices I make.

Is this some kind of delusion within me? a distraction maybe? Oh no not at all.

It's me, something is wrong within me. 

Why do I feel this then? 

Oh could it be that I am in love with someone that is out of my reach? 

something is bothering me for a while now.

Why do I feel you're so far away? 

I can't even reach you. 

Why in all 7 billion people has to be you? because there is something in you that I see that I can't see with other people.

While I drown myself within the core of all disputed points of myself, 

but you showed up. 

All the strains that binds me that no one has noticed, 

but you showed up. 

All the misguided things that I do, 

but you showed up. 

Why? 

Why is this happening to me? 

Why is it that I can only reach you by imagining you in my own mind?

I hate to think of you 

because I end up recreating you in my own mind just to fill up my needs. 

It scares me so much. 

I can't show it to you what is within me.

So I stay silent until you see me.

Until then I can only love you from afar.