iii

to answer the age old question

of what would you do during a relationship?

i dunno, i've never had one

but i can tell you my fantastical plans

of how the stick meets the fun dip

i'm already thinking of saving up

for a weeklong trip to her as a friend

and we can do whatever she wants

i'm all down for it for a week

to compare, i'm technically the pup

but our friendship'll probably never evolve

we're close but she also has someone else

my opinion is irrelevant

because she has the first and last say

and that's fine, for the future and to-day

if you think about it, i'm temperamental

it's better to calm me down but only with caution

i might have words that come out jumbled

instead of linear, like a wire on the braces

there's only so much we can pay for dental

plus, i guess you could say that i prefer

a relationship that isn't that sexual at all

one friend calls me asexual, i dunno

where to conflict with that comparison

however i'd call it platonic and non-textual

i don't believe in sex

like i don't believe in Trump or Clinton

the 2016 election was one of 

the worst things we've done so far

sex will be the last thing, i swear like Balthazar

i'd rather focus on the emotions and connections

those are what make it meaningful for me

i'd rather tell her that she is beautiful

and i'd say it with the heart, not the lower half

the latter can go because it's not for me

and there are so many people

that are going to take this poem

wrong in so many different contexts

well let me say that you don't decide

whether to put this shit out in text

critics cannot decide the influence of a subject

they can only watch and grade the matter

they lend out criticism to its viewers indirectly

and they sometimes filter out their feelings

not wrong, but it makes it less better

until then, she has the say not me

it's possible we'll only be friends

but she does care and worry about me

and there are some days that i go too far

i'm sorry for those days

she's the only friend i have

where i can pour everything out and she understands

you may think this is a bad idea, the worst one

but friends are occasionally my catharsis

there's more emotions left to halve