vii

hey look, guess what?

i've dealt damage to those that i care about

but they don't understand as well

they might be just as guilty as me

but in the end, i'm the culprit

this is why i'm often better off alone

if you don't want to get involved,

leave me

i understand if i'm too serious for you

do you know how much i have to go through?

i'm stressed every day

and i already said that friends are my catharsis

i guess i ain't for you, then

i guess i ain't for serious or your kind of folk

and i'm normally a happy person

who is excited every day friday comes

and i changed for you

do you how much stress you put on me?

do you know that i changed for you

because you wouldn't like me being myself?

and you say that you don't want to be involved

that makes me laugh a little because

don't you know that no matter what

the truth spills out anyway?

that's happened to me before

and you think that asking innocent questions

is disrespectful?

well, let me tell you what

that makes me angry, more than i already am

to know that questions are nothing more than words

to you. were they all that meant to you?

i thought one was someone else

someone that i was already annoyed with

and i did not mean to spew hate at you

you should know that i didn't know

and now another don't want to get involved?

ha. that's hilarious

it's almost like i was still being me all along

i guess i should just ramble on then

because words don't matter, only actions

and i'm so disappointed at how things came to be

it's either you or me

and you're probably going to say that it's me

but i think you're just as guilty

for not telling me face-to-face the truth

as i am guilty

for being mad, angst and moody towards you

at this point, i don't care anymore

lie to me, i don't fucking care

gossip about me, you're only making yourself worse

ditch me, i was already abandoned. wasn't i?

because silence can also hurt like the lie or truth

and misunderstanding can also hurt like a blade

at least i'll still be myself and care about my friends

and you'll think i'm unstable, when clearly

i'm already fucking sane