Dear Self...

Dear Self,

You look at yourself as a nice person.

A nice,

outgoing,

talkative,

caring person who would do anything to make others smile.

In fact you focus on other people's happiness instead of your own,

being completely selfless.

You would think someone as nice as you would have friends who would adore you.

Friends who would always stand by your side in return for standing by theirs,

and friends who too would do anything to make you smile.

But instead you're alone.

You have no one that hangs around with you.

No one to keep you company.

No one to comfort you during the gloomy days.

And no one to make you smile inside and out.

The "friends" you make never seem to stay.

They never seem to really care about you.

They only seem to care about their needs and satisfaction.

So if you know that,

why do you keep trying to make them smile?

Why do you still let them use you?

Why would you have any sympathy for them?

And for once in your life, why won't you stop giving them more than a second chance, hoping they'll change when it's clear that they never will?

All this is just too much.

All this is ripping you apart.

And all this will eventually kill you.

You need to face the facts that no matter how good it is to put a smile on someone's face, doesn't mean they'll do the same for you.

Like most people in this world, they're going to leave at some point once they're satisfied with what they have,

leaving you alone,

depressed,

and permanently broken.

Face the fact that you'll always be forever alone.

And in a way, it's better off that way.

Sincerely

Your Head