What it’s like to miss her at 2 a.m

It's painful

You can feel it in your heart

You feel it that she's far

That's she's detached from you

Every muscle in your body feels weak

Because that one person that gives you happiness is now gone

She claims to still be there

But you feel it

She's not

She feels far

Because she is

And now you're in bed

Balling your eyes out

Because you can't be with her

Because you had to be so stupid to care about what everyone would say if you left

It's only been 3 days without her

But it's felt like forever

Why can't you just pack your shit and leave

Be in control of your own life

You can feel it in your heart that after a while she's gonna get sick of not having you there

And she's not gonna feel the same for you anymore

And that's what you're scared of

Losing her

Your happiness

The one thing that makes you smile

Yet with just one move can break your heart forever

How can one person control every single feeling in your body?

You hate it

You feel like once she looses interest it's over

Forever

Forever

Forever

Her love for you drifting away with the wind

And what can you do?

Nothing

There will be nothing you can do

You can cry

You can yell

You can do anything but it won't change her mind

And she'll find someone new

Or maybe even go back to that bitch that you hate so much

She'll pretend to be that babies mother again.

It's not hers

She's stupid

She lets that bitch get to her

Why did I even let myself get into the position of getting my heart broken at any second?

I'll tell you why

Because she's beautiful. She's perfect in your eyes. Her skin smooth under your touch

Her eyes so sweet and gentle all though deep deep you can see them yelling for help. Her heart so big

He hair so curly and beautiful

Oh how much you fucking love her

But you know soon enough that happiness is going to disappear

And fuck

Fuck fuck fuck

You're gonna be back into a worse depression than you're already in.

And you might not be able to get out this time

Because while you miss her she'll probably have already moved on

She doesn't show her emotions

So you can't tell if she's sad or not

She might be I'll give that to her

She might be sad maybe for a day

But then she'll pull together and just move on

Man how much you fucking love this girl that you're here up at 2:23 in the Fucking morning because you can't sleep because you can't breath because you miss her. And what is she doing?

Sleeping

Not Missing you

You stupid fucking bitch realize that she'll be fine with out you

But you don't want to open your eyes and see that

So let's just continue to fake a smile and pretend that everything is okay

Although it is not

And will never be

Because she left you.

2 am thoughts.