What it’s like to miss her at 2 a.m
It's painful
You can feel it in your heart
You feel it that she's far
That's she's detached from you
Every muscle in your body feels weak
Because that one person that gives you happiness is now gone
She claims to still be there
But you feel it
She's not
She feels far
Because she is
And now you're in bed
Balling your eyes out
Because you can't be with her
Because you had to be so stupid to care about what everyone would say if you left
It's only been 3 days without her
But it's felt like forever
Why can't you just pack your shit and leave
Be in control of your own life
You can feel it in your heart that after a while she's gonna get sick of not having you there
And she's not gonna feel the same for you anymore
And that's what you're scared of
Losing her
Your happiness
The one thing that makes you smile
Yet with just one move can break your heart forever
How can one person control every single feeling in your body?
You hate it
You feel like once she looses interest it's over
Forever
Forever
Forever
Her love for you drifting away with the wind
And what can you do?
Nothing
There will be nothing you can do
You can cry
You can yell
You can do anything but it won't change her mind
And she'll find someone new
Or maybe even go back to that bitch that you hate so much
She'll pretend to be that babies mother again.
It's not hers
She's stupid
She lets that bitch get to her
Why did I even let myself get into the position of getting my heart broken at any second?
I'll tell you why
Because she's beautiful. She's perfect in your eyes. Her skin smooth under your touch
Her eyes so sweet and gentle all though deep deep you can see them yelling for help. Her heart so big
He hair so curly and beautiful
Oh how much you fucking love her
But you know soon enough that happiness is going to disappear
And fuck
Fuck fuck fuck
You're gonna be back into a worse depression than you're already in.
And you might not be able to get out this time
Because while you miss her she'll probably have already moved on
She doesn't show her emotions
So you can't tell if she's sad or not
She might be I'll give that to her
She might be sad maybe for a day
But then she'll pull together and just move on
Man how much you fucking love this girl that you're here up at 2:23 in the Fucking morning because you can't sleep because you can't breath because you miss her. And what is she doing?
Sleeping
Not Missing you
You stupid fucking bitch realize that she'll be fine with out you
But you don't want to open your eyes and see that
So let's just continue to fake a smile and pretend that everything is okay
Although it is not
And will never be
Because she left you.
2 am thoughts.