10/03/17
Friday 10th March 10.32am
My phone starts to buzz in my hand, I check the caller ID and it is exactly who I expect it to be, Rachael. I miss her so much. I slide the answer on my shitty iPhone 4S, while standing up and walking away from my friendship group, standing outside the toilets.
“Hey, how are you? How’s it going?” I ask, excited to be able to talk to one of my best friends since the last time we spoke about 2 weeks ago.
“Addison, it’s not good.” She replies quietly, and without even listening to the words she says, I know something is wrong. I need some more privacy. I walk outside and start pacing up and down the path. “Hey, what’s happened? Are you okay?” I ask, getting more concerned by the second.
“Um, so one of the girls in my unit, she got discharged, and she got out and, well she, um, she killed herself.”
I stop pacing and freeze. I can’t talk, I can’t move, I just stand there, shocked. Then the flashbacks start, I remember Martin, his funeral that I didn’t get to go to, the countless police uniforms, the sadness in Spencer’s eyes. It all comes back to me and I feel everything come crashing back down.
“Shit” is all I manage to say, running a hand through my hair. The line stays silent, I know I need to say something and that I’m the worst friend ever, but I just can’t.
“Are you okay?” I ask, already knowing the answer.
“Honestly, no.” I knew she was going to say that, I just knew it, but it doesn't help me knowing, it hurts. Knowing that your friend is not okay and that there’s nothing you can do to help and no way you can get to them.
“Well, I’m here for you, you can talk to me anytime, about anything not just this, okay? I’m here.” I say, trying to be supportive, but failing, she’s probably heard this at least 500 times already today.
“Thanks Addi, it means a lot. Look, I’ve got to go now, but I probably won’t be back at school for a few weeks.”
“Yeah, yeah, that’s fine, totally understandable, take all the time you need. I’m here for you, we all are. Text me, okay?”
“Yeah of course, bye, love you”
“Love you too” I say before hanging up. I walk back into my year level centre and sit down, shocked. So many thoughts going through my mind. So many feelings.
A/N:
Addison is played by India Eisley - http://i.imgur.com/jBF2pPF.jpg