Funeral
The sun is shining,
Yet all I see is black.
The pastor
Rambles on,
Speaking words
That mean nothing
Other than for everyone
To feel closure-
But that is the complete opposite of what I feel.
There has been a gaping chasm
Since you died
And I have been teetering on the edge of it,
Tempting fate,
Peering over the edge and wondering
If the plunge would truly be worse than living
There are flowers,
And they are scentless,
But to me they smell like death.
They line the pews
And their petals scatter among the aisle,
And they remind me I'm falling apart.
People are listening and there are tears
Pooling at the feet of demise.
Just because you can't see my pain,
Slicing down the skin of my cheeks,
Does not mean that there aren't shadows
Ripping away at my viscera.
My vocal cords,
Are shredded.
I can't scream any longer,
And still no one has heard me.
I am lost in the remnants that you left behind
And I don't think I'll ever get free.