Out of the sameness and into the void

She came out of the fog of sameness

Where life was dull

People were painfully polite

And the things she desired were only whispered about 

In dark corners

And *those* shops

Unspeakable things

Bruises and welts

Pain and pleasure

Sex and submission

Her hopes were high when she emerged

Bright and shiny 

In a world where darkness often reigns

In the sameness she was considered beautiful 

Desired by many for her wildness 

A rare diamond in a sea of zircons

But here her naïveté and inexperience are a detriment

Her beauty considered plain

And the things she had desired

Further away than ever

Often alone and lonely

Left wondering what she'd done wrong

The blanket of despair gets heavier 

Weighted with disappointed dreams

She's unsure what to do next

To stay or go away

All she really knows now

Is that she's in limbo between two worlds

Not fitting in there

Not meant for here

Not belonging anywhere