slow dance.
soft morning light:
& i am naming my desires,
settling back into my memories,
kissing teenage girls by campfires
& lying to my mother.
i do not admit to wanting,
even as i wake up beside the river,
spilling water from my chest,
considering dreams
of white birds & cathedrals.
watching women
from across crowded rooms
is not enough —
so i move to the other side
of town & drink there.
a tender rain passes
over the sleeping city
as i pace restless
in & out
of my childhood bedroom.
violence, then —
i would have preferred a hurricane,
someone real to love,
not faceless, whom to lose
would be unbearable.
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