Day One
1. 6:30 am. Wake up. Take a shower. Shave, brush teeth. Do fifty push-ups to get your biceps pumped. Get dressed, nothing fancy, just dress like you normally dress, they said. Check yourself in the mirror, three four five times. Wonder what the fuck you are doing. Check your arms.
2. 7:00 am. Sit on the couch, kill time. Watch t.v. but don't pay attention. Skip breakfast, just to be on the safe side. Try to read a magazine, but don't pay attention.
3. 7:15 am. Decide maybe you should eat some yogurt or something. Don't finish the bowl. Brush teeth again. Check hair. Check arms. Do another fifty push-ups.
4. 7:30 am. Lock the front door, walk to the car. Drive to a warehouse in the Valley. Arrive early and sit in the car for twenty minutes, staring at your reflection in the rear view mirror, at the entrance to the warehouse. Take a drink from the bottle of whiskey in the glove compartment. Check your wallet. Check your arms. Take off your sunglasses and look yourself in the eye in the mirror. Tell yourself you are handsome, you are going to do this. Roll up your sleeves so your biceps show.
5. 8:05 am. Walk into the warehouse and ask for the office. Smile at the receptionist and don't look down her shirt. Fill out the most rudimentary application you have ever seen: your real name, the name you want to be known by, your age, your address. Surrender your ID to be copied and returned to you. Have a seat. Wait.
6. 8:40 am. Meet the Boss. Be friendly. Shake hands, smile, maintain eye contact. Stand up straight. Look confident. Look baller. Look like you have done this before.
7. 9:15 am. Go the bathroom. Drink water from the tap. Check yourself in the mirror. Check your arms.
8. 9:20 am. Meet your Co-worker. You are not famous, you are a dumb kid. She is not famous but she has done this before. Be friendly, don't look down her shirt either. Shake hands, say it is good to be working with you. Smile. Forget you are eighteen.
9. 9:30 am-1:00 pm. Decline the pills. Do the work. Fuck the girls. Ignore the men.
10. 1:10 pm-2:30 pm. Lunch. Get a Snickers bar from a vending machine. Sit in the car and eat it. Finish the whiskey.
11. 2:40 pm-6:45 pm. Decline the pills. Do the work. Fuck the girls. Ignore the men.
12. 7:00 pm. Take a shower. Say thanks to everyone who says, Great work today, kid or some variation, Smile sheepishly, good-naturedly when the men call you donkey. Shrug. Make some bland comment about luck.
13. 7:15 pm. Say goodnight to the Boss, to the Co-worker, Drive to the liquor store near your apartment. Buy three bottles of whiskey with the cash you earned today. Buy heroin from the kid in the next apartment.
14. 8:00 pm. Shoot up. Go to sleep.