Is it worth it?

What is normal? What is a normal life? How can one have one if everybody is different? Can I have one? Do I even want one? Is it worth it? Is being 'normal' worth losing yourself? Why is it so important to be 'normal'? To fit in? Do I not fit in? Do I not belong? Am I the only one asking this? Does everybody else know what to do? Am I really all alone? Do I have nobody to share these concerns with? Does nobody care that I'm losing myself to a mask? Is normal really having to fake everything? To never really love someone, to always do what everybody expects me to do? To never choose something for me? To have nobody really on my side? To have everybody only like you when you do what they want? To be kicked aside when you're not needed or wanted anymore? Is this life really worth it? Worth losing everybody you care about? Worth losing yourself? I wouldn't know, I'm not me anymore.