I watched your hips sway, moving with your body in one fluid motion as you made your way across the blacktop driveway to join me in my car. I heard the ding sound my door makes as you open it to get inside. God you smelled good. I inhaled getting a temporary high from your perfume as it came gushing into my nostrils. I didn't dare look in your direction even when you started to speak. I had already decided that today was going to be the day. I was going to tell you how I really felt. How I had felt for years. And if I was going to do that, I would need to keep my gumption up and that meant not looking at you because if I looked at you, it was over. I would get all weak knee'd and doey eyed and there would be no telling you. 

"Where are we going?" You smiled. I could hear the smile in your voice and I love that about you. 

"Just for a drive." I responded. We often went for drives. Especially during the summer and this particular day was perfect for one which confirmed to me that it was time to tell you. It was only after we had drove around for a little while with the windows down and both of us singing at the top of our lungs to the songs playing on the radio that I slowed the car down and turned the dial to the volume decreasing it to a low murmur. I still hadn't looked at her the entire car ride except for a couple of glimpses I had stolen out of my peripheral vision when she wasn't paying attention. I could feel her turn to look at me though when I slowed the pace of the car. 

"What are you doing?" She inquired sounding curious. She was so cute I thought my heart was about to bust! In between her cuteness and my nervousness I felt like I could faint at any moment. I decided I was just going to blurt it out because if I didn't and my mind had time to think about it, it would talk me out of it again and she would never know. 

"Jenny, there's something I need to tell you..." I started out slowly all the while keeping my eyes on the road. I could feel her lean closer with interest and I could smell her perfume again which only intoxicated me more than I already was. My heart sped up and was beating so hard I figured she could see it thumping in my chest. "Well.. I don't know how to say this.. and let me just say that, after I tell you, I'll take you home if you wish and you don't ever have to talk to me again if you don't want to..."

She giggled. "Oh don't be silly! What is it?"

"Well you know that I love you... but I... well... I love you as more than a friend. More than a best friend... and more than a sister!" The last few words came tumbling out so fast that I almost got tongue tied but thank goodness I didn't and I had finally told her! I was so excited for a few moments but then it hit me, I had told her and she still hadn't said anything back yet... Was she mad? I slowly turned my head around in her direction to try and analyze her expression. She wasn't frowning, but she wasn't smiling either. It was kind of a in-the-middle. Sort of a blank expression really. "Are you okay?" I asked quietly.

"Yeah." She responded.

"Are you mad?" I asked.

"No." She shifted in her seat. "I just need some time to think about things, that's all."

So I picked up the pace a little bit and went down a couple of our favorite roads hoping to give her some time but also to bring her out of her silence. 

It wasn't until I got low on gas and I couldn't possibly contain myself any longer that I said anything. "Do you want me to take you back home?" I ask my voice a little shaky as I presumed what I would hear back. 

"No." She stated much to my surprise. 

"I'm sorry I have these feelings and I'm sorry that I didn't tell you sooner. I just didn't know how you would feel about this type of thing and I didn't want to lose my best friend." I lowered my head and stared straight ahead at the road in front of me as I let the next few words roll off my tongue. "So... here's how I see this... I wanted you to know cause I've felt this way for years and I was tired of hiding it from you and now you know, mission accomplished. With that being said, now that you know, I will never mention it again and we can go on being friends just like always if that's what you want. It will be just like nothing ever happened & no one will ever know but us." She continued to be quiet for a little while longer. Finally after what seemed like a lifetime has went by she looked at me & I turned to face her & for the first time in a long time, we made direct eye contact. She had powerful eyes. The kind I could get lost in and never even know I was lost. We held a gaze at one another for a brief moment before I turned my attention back to the road. Her lips gently parted & I thought she was going to say something but she didn't so I stayed silent too. I came upon a fork in the road & stopped to inquire which way she would like to go. But before I could even turn my head toward her she placed her delicate fingers under my chin turned my face to meet hers & leaned in colliding her lips with mine.

It was the most wonderful thing I had ever experienced. I had often envisioned what it would be like if ever her lips should meet mine, but this... this was 10x better than what I could ever have imagined. Her lips felt like velvet they were so soft & after the initial kiss came to an end she started to pull away shyly & apologize but before she could get the apology out I muffled it by crashing our lips together again thus starting our first make out session of many more to come.