I wish you knew exactly what I meant

I wish I could say these things

to you.

without cracking under the ice. without collapsing into

the cavern in my throat. 

I wish I could 

beg you to stay. with me.

I wish we were tied together. forever.

our lips sown together. our ribs

entwined. my fingers gripping your

spine. pulling you always

to me.

I wish I could

leave you.

before 

         you 

               leave 

                       me.