I wish I could go back in time to my younger self. And just whisper to her Please don't remember this! This monster won't take your happiness away this time. Tell someone. Don't let him get away with it. Just PLEASE don't remember this.

As the memories flood back to me of all those years of torture, I remember the smell of his office. The clean leather smell. I never knew why it always smelled so good in the room. But now as a tortured soul I do.

I go back to those years so easily, not realizing that it's just hurting me more knowing that I can't change the past.

Please don't let him take your innocence away from you. Please don't remember this trauma. Please let go of your pain. But most of all little me, PLEASE DON'T REMEMBER THIS!!!