a letter to you

i hope you never see this.

i cannot tell if i am in love with you or if i want to be best friends with you.

i want to spend every moment with you

and if not with you, i want to be texting you

i come to you with every problem i have

and i listen to you when you rant

however seldom that is

but isn't that something friends do?

that's not exclusive to a relationship

my problem is i feel everything too much, and too deeply

i can not separate lust from love

and friendship from a relationship

the lines tend to blur

i have not been in a single relationship

where i have not fallen for someone else

which is why i'm terrified i'll ruin us too

i'm in too deep with you

i wake up every morning just to text you

i don't sleep at night without a goodnight from you

but i do not know if i love you

because i am not sure i want to kiss you

and that's love isn't it?

it is just a friendship but with kissing

so if i do not want to kiss you

i do not know if i want to love you