our talks

i feel too much 

too often

everything i feel comes in big sweeping waves of emotion

that overwhelm

surrounding me in twisted thoughts 

enough to make me pull my hair out

i tell you this

you do not reply

i had a bad day

one that left me sobbing in my bed

stuffing a pillow in my mouth 

so no one would ask

i resembled a ship 

the shattered remains of one

sails ripped apart

engine no longer working

i tell you this 

you do not reply

my dog died

she was old

it was an unhappy life for her

i have not stopped crying

and now i cry alone

as she was the only one who knew

of the heartbroken tears that escaped from me every night

i tell you this

you do not reply

i wonder

how much of this can i take

how much can a human

possibly survive

what pushes someone over the limit

you

you push people over the limit

your silence says more to me than you ever did

and i think

this 

this is what you needed to hear

i tell you this

and you reply

you deserve better