For Me It’s a Choice
In my life, I have both merely just existed, and have lived my life to the fullest.
"How has this happened?" You may ask.
Well for me, it's all a matter of making a decision within the moment.
The moments where I just exist are those when I get stuck in my head, thinking about what I'm supposed to do; get a job, earn my money, pay my debts. When this happens, I become more dissatisfied, wishing I were doing something else, being something else. I separate myself from the people that are around me, and from reality, so that neither are allowed in my thoughts.
The moments where I live, I don't think about whatever issue I'm dealing with at the time, I'm too busy in the moment, being present. I feel a warmth of happiness in my stomach, and deep satisfaction that can't be faked. The laughter that comes from my mouth is real and uncontrollable, and gives me some terrible hiccups afterwards.
I strive so I have more moments where I can look back and vividly remember what happened that day, rather than forgetting that it ever did happen. In my opinion, choosing to live instead of just existing is a choice I make every day, just by trying to live within the moments I have now.