I choose to live
Its been long that I have been existing as a mass of flesh with blood and breaths,
Purposelessly existing through days weeks and months,
Bank balance was on rise but it failed to instil life in the existing mass,
The struggle ended when I rebelled,
No to 9 to 5 monotony,
No to lead life as society tells,
Turning deaf to the people who tell that money is success,
I followed my heart and eventually landed in the paradise,
That's when I got to know what living life means!
For Me It’s a Choice
In my life, I have both merely just existed, and have lived my life to the fullest.
"How has this happened?" You may ask.
Well for me, it's all a matter of making a decision within the moment.
The moments where I just exist are those when I get stuck in my head, thinking about what I'm supposed to do; get a job, earn my money, pay my debts. When this happens, I become more dissatisfied, wishing I were doing something else, being something else. I separate myself from the people that are around me, and from reality, so that neither are allowed in my thoughts.
The moments where I live, I don't think about whatever issue I'm dealing with at the time, I'm too busy in the moment, being present. I feel a warmth of happiness in my stomach, and deep satisfaction that can't be faked. The laughter that comes from my mouth is real and uncontrollable, and gives me some terrible hiccups afterwards.
I strive so I have more moments where I can look back and vividly remember what happened that day, rather than forgetting that it ever did happen. In my opinion, choosing to live instead of just existing is a choice I make every day, just by trying to live within the moments I have now.
Living vs Existing
Living is
Breathing
Humming along to lyrics you forgot
Laughing at something you just thought
Talking about nothing at all
Day dreaming
A state of anticipation
Searching for adventure
Being
Completeness
Existing is
Choking
Silence
Hollow smiles
Not talking about anything at all
Dark thoughts
A state of fear
Going through the motions
Surviving
Emptiness
The Difference
Existing - Possession of the ideas, framework, thoughts, hopes, and scrutinized instructions of a good life.
Living - Possession of the capital resources to make an idea a reality, a framework a building, a thought a thought whose time has come, a hope a new concept that changes the world, and the scrutinized instructions of a good life the mesmerizing standard by which all life should be measured.