PILLS AND KILLS

They tell me that I'm stupid

That I'm my own worst enemy

They tell me all I need is a pill

A toxic little remedy

To numb my mind

& fill the hole

Not mentioning the fact

That it would kill my soul

I'd be dead inside

A zombie, a mime

Which they probably want

Because they don't have time

To care about this wretched mess

That they label drama queen

I'm obviously just faking it

How could i be so obscene?

They'll never get it

They'll never know

What it's like to be me

To be lost so far below

Smothered in feelings

Awash with sorrow

& knowing it will all be

The same again tomorrow

There's no escaping

Who i am

There's no pill that can change

The flow of this dam

I won't find peace

Inside of a bottle

A concoction of poisons

All a mottle

You can scream

& rant & rave

But I won't take your pills

I won't dig my grave

So here i am

All alone

& here i will be

Forever alone

Letting you rape me

& bleed me dry

All because

I cannot die

So I'll cry myself to sleep each night

& pray for God to take me

Because I can't bear another day

Of drowning in this sea

Copyright: CJ