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Behind closed eyes

you're not the person

who I love

As the sun lays down to rest

apart from earthly things

and the thoughts that make up my conscious being

create a cacophony, undistinguished

My grasp on reality loosens 

until it is no longer 

in reach

lullaby--  

when you lie

here

you'll always

lose. 

I watch myself from above

trembling in my sleep.

Cold sweat dripping down my legs

eyelids fluttering

unopened. 

Going deeper in

everything is wrong

Your being encompassed

through your absence 

You're not who you're supposed to be

I kick the blankets off. 

lullaby-- 

when you lie

here

you'll always

lose. 

Outside, streetlights

cast their shadows 

as the stillness of the moon

floats like a halo up above.

The fluorescent humming is deafening

if only it were enough.

Neither the rising of the sun

nor the ethereal rays

piercing cracks in the blinds

could ever

make sense of it.  

Behind closed eyes

everything I know

fades to static.