You’re Not Here Anymore

Hey, you're not here, and I'm sorry

I miss you

Your mother misses you

Your sisters miss you

Every day I wake up and think

"This is my fault"

There was so much left for you in life

You were only 15

It's my fault you are gone

If I had just been awake when you asked

If I had just thought it through

If I had just paid more attention to you

You would still be here

You're not here, and I'm sorry

All you wanted to do was skate with your sisters

I knew you were new at it

I should have said no

But I was tired

And let you go

You're not here, and it's my fault

I was sleeping when your sister called

When I answered

She was crying

Screaming in pain

All I heard was

"Sarah was hit"

"Daddy, help"

When I got there

The ambulance had already gotten you

You're not here, and it is my fault

We got to the hospital with your sisters

Your mother was still at work

And didn't know we were at the hospital

I watched them take you out of the ambulance

You were wearing your pink hoodie

My baby

You weren't moving

I ran down the hospital following you

I watched as they gave you CPR

I screamed your name

"Sarah, baby, daddy is here"

You're not here, and I'm sorry

I watched as the doctors stopped giving you CPR

I fell to my knees

You were gone

I visit your grave every day

I sing your favorite song

I don't let anyone in your room

Your phone is still active

Part of me is waiting for you to come home

But I already know you are gone

You're not here, and I'm sorry Sarah

I'm sorry baby